Broken-Hearted

 

When you broke my heart, I …. I felt a sudden shred in my brain

My heart stopped,

I couldn’t breath

I kept thinking why it didn’t matter to you?

Why it didn’t work and where it went wrong?

I kept running in an empty cycle. Torturing my mind with endless questions to figure out how i didn’t  see it what was coming towards me.

Silly of me to think you were the man I needed and deserved. How everything was fake….. I did not see it.

Sometime before that, I thought being a girl was a weakness. That our emotions controlling us is a shame, yet after many experiences the only person I found sticking next to me is ME!

Hence, I declare that the true love relationship is between me and myself. Myself loves me with all my flows and imperfections. “I” helped me to pick myself up after each fall. Therefore I will put myself first above all limits and everything.

Self love is an underrated concept. Why can’t we cherish who we are and take care of ourselves as we do to other people who don’t even lift a finger to do the same thing for us? Why do we drain our energy trying to show our love and appreciation to others while we should be doing the same to our own selves! Then at the climax of our giving and care we collapse and start blaming others for not taking care of us or loving us where in fact we must love ourselves first and the others will follow suit.

I realized that it doesn’t matter to feel others’ love if I love me, and that is what I want to share with you within those lines. I got everything I need if I love me.

Believe me, others will want to join you if they see you are happy and treating yourself right. Maybe some will want to join you to destroy the happiness in your eyes but many will want to be part of your life simply because you deliver positive energy that they want to be around.

To be honest, I would not have came to this conclusion without the help of “some” unfortunate people that came across my path in life. Therefore I would like to show my appreciation and thanks to these experiences that today I consider my strongest points.